to leave or not to leave?

amp. i'm so confused. I don't know what to do with my very stressing life. Haha. I know, i'm still searching for something. Ewan. Taena ang hirap talaga.
What will you do when everyday you come to realize that working 5 days a week, 10 hours a day, won't make a difference? I mean, will I be owning a condo unit at the Fort by the time I reach 27 with the kind of work I have now? And this is so harsh, "im so freaking old!" Dammit.
So now I came up with a 50% decision of going abroad. Tama ba to? Amp di ko alam. I know it's either I win or lose. Sobrang risk to. Maybe u'l wonder where the other half percent goes? di ko din alam. it's wandering around.
I admit i'm scared. Scared of losing more, afraid of living alone, without the people I am depending on. I'm scared of homesickness. I don't want to experience crying at night because of some impulsive decisions I made and reaping nothing from it but sadness. I'm scared I won't be able to live independently, because primarily, I haven't tried going out of my comfort zone. But on the other hand, I know it's about time to grow.

Oh God, please send the angels now..

[ 12:03 AM ]

to leave or not to leave?

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