how long

what do we mean to each other
am i friend am i lover
is it over now?

do u love me still
or do u just mean well?

hayayayay..love, blow my way..

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

jerk

oo ikaw nga..haha.may araw ka rin..

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

this is so me..freaky.

nakakatakot na nakakatawa..eto talaga ako

jaraaaaaaaannn...

Your Birthdate: October 23

You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem.
You're good at so much - you never know what to do.
Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long.
You are destined for a life of travel and fun.

Your strength: Your likeability

Your weakness: You never feel satisfied

Your power color: Bright yellow

Your power symbol: Asterisk

Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

choices

I don't know how to begin blogging but I very well know what I want to write. My life evolved around making choices, good and bad ones, and now I doubt if I made right ones. I was off to work yesterday, and as usual, I had to run errands and fix papers while I have the chance to. I was really lazy to go out but I really had to. I was always this tamad and I need to change for my future na rin. I went to St. Scho for my credentials' authentication, and seriously, I miss the school. It was a lot different na, pergola is under construction, the entrance is now at the parking lot, and it was lot quieter than before. Haha. I didn't miss the uniform though, but it brought back memories of college life. I suddenly remembered my classmates, the MM class, the breaks all we want, and the single life that I got used to live- with no one to think of but myself and graduating. How great it is to live like i'm just focused on one thing and nothing else. But it's true pala when you finish school you will get to be in the 'real world' with some great and some crap, and it's up to you to choose whichever, whoever suit you.
I was talking to a friend in YM last night, and it's great to talk to someone with the same situation as mine. Haha. That person is weird, and I don't expect to talk like that seriously ha. Well anyhow, it was nice knowing that some people do understand the situation that I'm going through without the pressure of doing the right thing just like those who keep on telling what to do blah blah. That doesn't mean naman that I don't appreciate the advices and all, I admit most of the time the words of advice often affect the decisions I made, and whether the results were better or otherwise, at the end of the day, when i'm all alone, when the clock strikes at 3am, when this side of the world is sleeping, I am alone. I am crying. I am thinking. I am myself. I am human.
So, that was the day I had. And did I mention that I watched Sam and Toni's movie. Haha. Crap. It wasn't as kilig as I expected it to be but it's more of kilig when the camera is on Sam's, definitely, he's the prettiest face in the showbiz industry now. And to add up the crapness, haha, the girls watching with me was just so OA and kept on murmuring about how gwapo Sam is, how sexy Toni is, how reddish the dress Toni wears. Movie etiquettes, please? haha. I do understand that most Pinoys are like that but, you know, can't they just keep their comments with themselves and talk about it at the washroom, dba it's more fun when you can laugh your hearts out all together with your friends than bothering other watchers. Haha, I'm one lucky bitch, I get to be up close and personal with Sam everytime he goes out of town and needs to ride an airbus without the need to drool with flock of girls in a premiere night, concert or whatever. Sounds fun to have a job like this?Hell no... except of course if Sam's travelling everyday. Haha.
Speaking of jobs, a previous co-worker offered me a high paying job. Did I just say $$$$? Haha. Not literally in dollars ah, but you know getting atleast 8000 per payday? And this is just a rough estimate ah. Add the non-taxable allowance of 3200 per month. And guess what, this is not a call center job. Here I go again. But here's the catch, it's in Libis, so that means two things: either I rent a room for myself near the work or commute from work everyday. But what about Dubai? Haha. I'm torn.

The heat is on. Decisions decisions.

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Sunday, September 03, 2006

love's a game

love is just a game. broken all the same. and i will get over you.
love is just a lie. happens all the time.

great. just fuckin great.

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Friday, September 01, 2006

keeping me sane..

Pag-ibig
Artist: Apo Hiking Society
Album:

Revival: Kitchie Nadal
Album: Kami nAPO Muna - Tribute to Apo Hiking Society

LYRICS

[I]
Nong tangan ng nanay mo
Ang munti mong mga kamay
Ika'y tuwang-tuwa,
Panatag ang loob sa damdaming
Ika'y mahal

[II]
Nong nakilala mo ang una mong sinta
Umapaw ang saya at siya'y ibang-iba
Sinasamsam ang bawat gunita

[III]
Hindi mo malimutan kung kailan
Nagsimulang matuto kung papaanong magmahal
At di mo malimutan kung kailan mo natikman
Ang una mong halik
Yakap na napakahigpit
Pag-ibig na tunay hanggang langit

[IV]
Nong tayo'y nagkakilala ng hindi sinasadya,
Ikaw lang ang napansin,
Nahuli sa isang tingin
At sa pagbati mong napakalambing.

[V]
Hindi ko malimutan kung kailan
Nagsimulang matutong ikaw lang ang mahalin
At di ko malimutan kung kailan ko natikman
Ang tamis ng iyong halik
Yakap na napakahigpit,
Pag-ibig mong tunay hanggang langit

(Repeat V)

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Tribute to APO Revival- the best! Hehe..Tuwing naririnig ko to, sa totoo lang may naaalala ako..haha..*wink wink* Eto pa, I first heard this on the radio while driving at the Fort. Un lang. that's the life!

Sunny day. Shorts. Pants. Sunglasses. Chill. Pink. Bills. Malls. DVD. Chinese Food. Havaianas. Music. Guitar. Beer. Movies. Siomai. Sidecar. Jeep. Superman. Newspaper. The end.

Oh, memories. All good. :D

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Thursday, August 31, 2006

to leave or not to leave?

amp. i'm so confused. I don't know what to do with my very stressing life. Haha. I know, i'm still searching for something. Ewan. Taena ang hirap talaga.
What will you do when everyday you come to realize that working 5 days a week, 10 hours a day, won't make a difference? I mean, will I be owning a condo unit at the Fort by the time I reach 27 with the kind of work I have now? And this is so harsh, "im so freaking old!" Dammit.
So now I came up with a 50% decision of going abroad. Tama ba to? Amp di ko alam. I know it's either I win or lose. Sobrang risk to. Maybe u'l wonder where the other half percent goes? di ko din alam. it's wandering around.
I admit i'm scared. Scared of losing more, afraid of living alone, without the people I am depending on. I'm scared of homesickness. I don't want to experience crying at night because of some impulsive decisions I made and reaping nothing from it but sadness. I'm scared I won't be able to live independently, because primarily, I haven't tried going out of my comfort zone. But on the other hand, I know it's about time to grow.

Oh God, please send the angels now..

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