where are you?

We all know that this life is a never-ending journey, a boundless search for whatever. Most of us have no other choice but to move forward..And when more often than not people moves ahead, others choose to break off.

Right now, I have no other choice but to move forward.

And yet, while moving on, I keep on searching..

Quest#1:
I seek for me. I look for something that will make me happier..yes, i'm one of those who can't be contented and sometimes when I pray, I am ashamed of myself because I ask for more. Then I realize that I'm lucky.

*Konti nalang sa pilipinas ang nakaka survive ng walang work.. :) And this leads me to my next...

Quest#2:
.. It's been so long pero I would say na sobrang I reject other offers cause I know I wouldn't like it. I don't wanna make the same mistakes again. I know one day, my turning point will come. And i hope it will be very soon cause it's really tiring to wait! I'm scared too to find myself in a job where I had to grab it just for the sake of this f*cking thing that makes the world go round...

M-O-N-E-Y

I know money is an important part of everybody's life, but I believe it has become the root of all evil! Shit. It makes people fight and fight and fight! I know for someone as shopaholic as me, money is the greatest thing to have especially when the 'urge' is there.. haha..
But money can't buy EVERYTHING. Not love, not contentment nor happiness. Remember, the best things in life are free..

but my next quest isn't for free..

QUEST#3:
Croc Lite 4, where are you??

I was with a friend strolling at the mall when I saw it. Oh my goodness, my fave BAG brand. When I tried looking at it in the mirror, wala akong nasabe kundi..

Ang gaaanda!! (parang ricky reyes palmolive ad)

But wait, oo nga maganda pero shux..

Ang maaahal!! (tumataginting na 6k un!!)

And then I think twiced.. I decided not to be carried away with the impulsiveness. I went home still thinking about it. I thought if I only have work, I could buy it right there and then.. Pero wala..

So nag self-pity ako.. Nag-isip and came to a decision to forget all about it!

Weeks have passed, whenever I go to the mall, I tried not passing by this bag store. I really made up my mind to stop thinking about it. In these times, splurging isn't welcome.

But then again, I thought...

MALAPIT NA ANG BIRTHDAY ko!!! whew!! I want to buy that for myself! Gift ko para sa ken.. So I changed my mind, and went to the mall..

Pero wala na.. And the saleslady told me.."di pa po sure if there will be new stocks to arrive"

Gumuho ang mundo ko..

Yuck, ang O.A. Nde naman, I just felt a little disappointed. And I thought it wasn't for me. But I didn't give up that easily. And you know what I did?

I called every store branch that I know and asked if the model is still available, talk about bag addiction? Nyeta!!!

Out of stock talaga.. Every mall branch in Manila. :(

Lessons learned:
*What is meant for you, without a doubt, will be yours.

*If there's a will, there's a way..

And...
*Never stop hoping.
*Patience is a virtue.

HAHAHAHA... I'll wait for you f*ckn croc lite!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Tuesday, September 20, 2005

thank you

For a long time, I haven't been able to show how grateful I am to those people who believed in me.. I hope this post may be one of my own ways to let you know how i appreciate all of you..

This blog has been a part of me since the day I made it. At first, I had never thought I'd have one because I used to think that blogging means deliberately showing your life to the public, which I thought wasn't ok at all. I mean, you wouldn't want other people reading your diary, right? Blogging= online journal.. make sense? But due to some things that I'd rather not talk about, I was acquainted with this thing..

Self-proclaiming aside, I knew I have evolved on my writing approach. If you have the chance to read my previous blogs, you can see that for yourself. I can't say that I am a good writer now because compared to other bloggers, I guess, I've got so much to learn and so much to improve..

But some people liked it for real, and they made me feel so much grateful even if they're not reading all of my posts. Just the same, I also love reading other people's entries for the primary reason that I learn from them. Blogging is one thing that I discovered to love doing..and one person inspired me to do so..

To the one who gave me the encouragement to write: Thank you. I may not tell you how much it means to me but I really appreciate every single comment you make, good or bad, you are the best critic I have..
Just the thought of you taking a minute of your time to read my blog is enough to make me
feel good about myself because I know that everytime you do, i'm sharing a part of me, the
deeper me, my inner soul..

I am actually teary-eyed while writing this..

**And to all of you reading this blog, the visits, the comments and all..Thank you.
FYI, It was only recently that I commercialized this blog...

my fave blog sites:
waiterrant.net
alaism
superbianca
badinggerzie
baklangmaybf

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Friday, September 16, 2005

100th POST...

Whew...This is officially my...

ONE HUNDREDTH POST!!!

Yehey!!! I am a certified Blogger!! (Yes, I have imposed a new rule..hehe)

To celebrate my 100th entry, here are somethings about me..

* Section 1: YOU YOU YOU! *
+ Known as: Jo/Obel/Bew
+ Lives in: Pasay
+ Birthday: October 23, 1981
+ School: St. Mary's Academy/ St.Scholastica's College
+ Religion: Catholic
+ Shoe size: 5 1/2
+ Hair color: Brown
+ Eye color: Dark Brown
+ hair Style: long

* Section 2 - Have you ever... *
+ Cheated on someone? no
+ Been Cheated on? don't know
+ Fallen off the bed?: yes
+ Broken someones heart?: i think so
+ Had your heart broken?: yes
+ Had a dream come true?: yes
+ Done something you regret? yes
+ Cheated on a test? yes

* Section 3 - Currently *
+ Wearing? black tank top, shorts
+ Listening to? : Natalie-Going Crazy
+ Located?: house
+ Chatting with? none
+ Watching? Bubble Gang
+ Should REALLY be doing? : on a Friday night? Having fun..

* Section 4 - Do you... *
+ Brush your teeth?: yes
+ Have any piercings?: yes
+ Drive?: yes
+ Drink?: occasionally
+ Smoke?:

* Section 5 - The last person you... *
+ Hugged?: mom
+ Kissed?: mike
+ IMed?: ofi
+ Talked on the phone: mike
+ Yelled at?: ichu

* Section 6 - Personal *
+ What do you want to be when you finish college?: can't remember
+ What has been the best day of your life?: too many to mention
+ What comes first in your life?: family
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?: yes
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed?: things that happened earlier
+ Did you lose someone you really loved?: yes
+ How many times have you fallen in love?: uhmmm..
+ Love your family?: yes
+ Love your friends?: yes

* Section 7 - Favorite *
+ Movie: for now, it's Cinderella Man
+ Song: for now, Sleeps with Butterflies
+ Store: Bag and Shoe stores.. :)
+ Sport: billiards
+ Ice Cream Flavor: chocolate
+ Fruit: melon
+ Candy: anything menthol
+ Day of the Week: friday and saturday
+ Time: dawn
+ Color: black n white, pink n blue

* Section 8 - Do you *
+ Like to give hugs? yes
+ Like to give kisses? yes
+ Like to walk in the rain? yes
+ Prefer black or blue pens?: black pens
+ Like to travel?: yes
+ Sleep on your side, stomach or back? : side
+ Have a goldfish?: none
+ Ever have the falling dream?: yes
+ Have stuffed animals?: yes

* Section 9 - What do you think about... *
+ Smoking: bad habit. And my friends who are addicted to it.
+ Eating disorders: It's either you're super skinny or super chubby.. :p
+ Summer: swimming!
+ Tattoos: make you look like angas
+ Piercings: nice if not too much

* Section 10 - This or that *
+ Pierced nose or tongue? none
+ Single or taken?: taken
+ Sugar or salt?: both
+ Silver or gold?: both
+ Chocolate or flowers?: flowers
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? both
+ M&Ms or Skittles? both
+ Stay up late or sleep in?: stay up late
+ Hot or cold?: cold
+ Mustard or ketchup?: ketchup
+ Spring or Fall?: either
+ Happy or sad? : happy
+ Wonder or amazement? amazement

Brrrrooooommmmm.. Out.

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broken

I actually had so many thoughts on what to blog since last night (after writing the 2 movie reviews) but it seemed like they all faded away now..Kainis..

I read a lot of posts from bloggers and although some were really entertaining, there were some that made me think deeply. And right now, mas matimbang yung huli. :(
Why did it make me sad? It's because not only I had read about heart-breaking stories, but also, it affected me..right to the very core..

I know this blog may appear just-another-sad-poignant-based-on-my-own-realizations kind of thing but this is what I feel right now.. No, it is in fact bugging my mind from time to time..

ISSUE#1: Love bites.

Oh yeah..this is everyone's concern. Just this one "feeling" that nobody can explain. The Big "L". The only emotion that we cannot question..
Yeesss..Ang sarap ma-inlove diba? But why does it have to be both constructive and destructive? It supposed to be a happy feeling but we often hear (or personally we experience) heartbreaking situations? This has been my own question too for the longest time. All the while you thought it made you complete, believing that everyday is a bliss, then suddenly, a dreadful truth....

YOUR BF/GF cheated on you!!!

Tang*** .. Yun lang..!

Then you'll ask God why..Then you'll question yourself..Is it you or IS IT ME? (ang may problema)

Tanga.. It's not you for heaven's sake?!

May mga tao talagang sadyang gago. When they know that they've been wanted by everyone, saka naman magiging abuso.
Sana lang sa mga taong ganito, they would appreciate their BFs and GFs although their partners may not be the most perfect diba? Or if they are falling for somebody else, might as well be brutally honest ayt? Now, if the aggrieved party still wants to be in a relationship with you and you hurt them for not choosing to stay with them, e di mo na problema yun. Atleast you were HONEST! It hurts ten times more if they find out that you are fooling around. Ang sakit non..
I've had friends who experienced the same shit and yet still got back on track after some time. As the saying goes, "time heals all wounds", yep, there's still tomorrow. Without a doubt, everyone has to feel pain in one way or another..You can't get up when you haven't even stumbled..

And I got this from that blogger:

"Never touch a life, if you mean to break a heart"

ISSUE#2: The unscripted drama

I know this is one hell of a matter. Almost everyone (i think) is hooked on it.

PINOY BIG BROTHER!!!!

Hay, I just want to blog about this. Sobrang please..Jologs kung jologs...Hahaha..

I love this teleserye ng totoong buhay..Pinoy Big Brother has gotten into me..Although i'm not naman like other people who have to subscribe pa to pay-per-view sa skycable just to watch this show 24 hours a day, I admit I am affected in one way or another sa napapanood ko..

Right now, I hate Jb and Say..At first, I thought they were ok and even felt that theyd be one of the final four but now, I so f*ckin hate them both especially Jb. He is so tsismoso for a guy, a super backstabber and plastic. Sorry for those who love them but I really don't think a real MAN should act like that. I can't stand the day he said this:

"ano kaya kung panget ka na, mataba ka pa, panget pa ugali mo" (pertaining to a housemate)

Shocks dba? And after that, pinakita sa teaser

JB and Say french-kissing..

Anyhow, I have nothing against them kissing on national TV, but when SAY said this:

"ayan, sabe ko sayo (JB) may papasok eh" (sa room, they both biglang nag stop mag kiss after a housemate entered)

Leche. Nahiya pa sila don sa pumasok eh nakikita naman cla ng buong Pilipinas at mga subscriber ng the Filipino Channel..

Pag cla ang na nominate for eviction, I will surely not text for them to stay..Hehe..
Galit na galit eh noh?? Hehehe...

On the other hand, I love naman this two housemates:

Franzen- the inspiration of the underdogs. Ang pambato ng tropang Jologs.

- this guy, I think, deserves to win. Napaka-humble and so far I have never heard backstabbed anyone in the house. Very dunny in his own way. Has a heart-warming story about his sufferings in life and love.

Jayson- ang nagsabi ng line na: "tanggap naman ako ng asawa ko kung ano ako"..

Ayun..

ISSUE#3: Bochog

I think, whatever ad agency Palmolive hired, made this strategy: to make the audience feel irritated on this ad hiring an irksome model, seeing the infuriating dance steps and hearing the exasperating jingle and in that way, make the viewers remember the product unconsciously. Great move..Just so GRRRReat...

And what I think of the model...

Si Maoui David ay hindi deserving maging model ng shampoo. Ang booooccchhhooog nya!!

If you happen to see this ad on TV, pay attention to the fats in the armpit area. Oh my gulay, and the hair..Sana nagpa rebond muna di ba?

I am so freakin' mean..

zzzzz..'nyt..

[ 3:38 AM ] | 2 comments

Thursday, September 15, 2005

cinderella man

I was not into blogging lately, tinatamad ako..But I feel the need to write about my personal review about the movie Cinderella Man..Something nice to share naman after some terrible movies I watched recently.

Starred by Rusell Crowe, this was a story about a poor man, Jim Braddock, from the Great Depression Era who fought his own way to the boxing ring just to save his family from famine-- a touching memoirs about his life, his bravery to survive, his love for his wife and kids and his way to fame. In the end, Braddock found his way to success by winning a heavyweight champ title and defeating a fearless contender.

As for me, this is a must-see movie, it has a great plot given the fact that it is based from a true story. The actors' performances were superb, with Crowe and Zellwegger in it, no wonder it earned two nominations from international award-giving bodies. Not only it had touched my heart (especially the scene were Crowe had to beg money from the big bosses of boxing) but also tickled my bones with some funny parts. Good thing this movie has not have the same ending as Million Dollar Baby, it might not be that ok to watch..hehehe..Buti nalang..

***Rating: 9.5/10

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BROTHERS GRIMM

An adventure-suspense-comedy story about two brothers: Will and Jake Grimm who at first deceive people by doing bogus exorcisms in places where mysteries were believe to be of existence. Soon enough, they were sent to solve a case of missing children in a cursed forest. They eventually found out that it was a genuine fairy tale mystery that requires genuine bravery. In the end, they had succeded and lived happily ever after with the townsmen.

The special effects were good. I give credits to an amusing storyline. And yea, also to the cutie Matt Damon.. :D

***Rating: 6/10

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Wednesday, September 07, 2005

hala cge..

Sa totoo lang, wala akong malagay sa post kong ito...

2 days din kmeng walang telephone line, badtrip talaga..It's because of the rain last Monday..

Ayun, I suddenly remembered what happened last Monday.. Prettyboy and I went to Market!Market! He bought a replacement battery for the cordless phone. I was tempted na naman to shop but then I thought I was running out of resources. Magpigil. Magtipid. And find a job, damn it!

We decided to go home after having dinner when it rained so hard lahat ng dinaanan namen eh baha. So we agreed to stay nalang at Select Magallanes until it stopped. I felt i was one with the weather, senti mode ako. Thoughts about my life came through my mind. What the fu*k is happening to me now, I DON'T know. But certainly, while I am having second thoughts about all the plans I made, I am having the best times of my life naman these days.

"Rainy days and mondays always make me sad"

At napakanta pa ko..

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THE CAVE

I didn't plan on writing about a review about this movie but I just thought I can help other moviegoers on deciding whether to watch this movie or not. All I can say is that its so superbly TERRIBLE! Don't even dare to watch this. Again, another copycat story about some place not bound to be entered by humans; creatures and unknown parasites; etc. Nonsense plot, bad cinematography, awful performance of the actors and twaddle ending.

Not worth it.

Rating: 3/10

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