all mixed up!

I am frustrated. I am upset with a lot of things. I hate changes. I feel terribly empty. Here comes the weird me again.

Everything that happens now seems to be awfully distressing but the strange thing about it is that I don't exactly know why I HAVE to feel this way, when I know there are lots to be grateful for.

I've been used to detach myself from people but I know deep inside I'm really hurt. I don't know, but this might sound so babaw but I'm sad because I might lose my friends from work. For the past three months in Cebu Pacific, I have earned friends which made me love my work more. Mushy me, but this kind of things engender a feeling of anxiety for me. This June, we're gonna have different scheds na, which I am 90% sure I'm gonna be in morning shift. Damn! Baligtad na naman mundo ko. I hope my dog will still recognize me after 2 months..Haha.

Yun nga as I was saying, my friends and I would most probably be reshuffled to different working hours, ok lang sana but I can feel they will quit working if they will be put on earlier or later scheds, well, that's what they told me. I can't convince naman them to continue working since most of them are married and have kids already. Actually our batch had the biggest number of newbies that joined Airport Services but ewan ko, it's really hard to know one's attitude eh. Maybe I'm just scared that I'd be mixed up with people I won't be comfortable working with. Ewan, at this age, I should know these things already.

This morning was the most star-studded queue I had. This is history! Haha..

I handled Dumaguete bound flight a while ago. I have accepted Parokya ni Edgar Band and crew, but wasn't fortunate to have face-to-face encounter with Chito or Buwi man lang coz they had not showed up themselves in the counter. Sayang, but ok lang since I have pics already with Chito when we watched their gig in 19east last December. Actually, I just found out that they were Parokya when the other member was in the counter and talked to one of the crews. Astig. Share ko lang, they brought lots of music equips mostly high end (just sensed it) coz normally guitars can be hand-carried but one of them told me that the guards on the second x-ray area (before pre-dep) won't allow stuff like that so that means, that guitar has metals on it. I don't know, just a wild guess. Haha..

Then the next batch of stars arrived. WHOA!! Wala lang, this is the first time lang I checked-in showbiz people. What's nicer was that they were in the counter! All of them! Haha..Kuya Giant, the loader, told me if I know Jake Cuenca daw, then I saw one guy sa queue, pwedeeee!! Hahaha.. He's with Sherilyn Reyes, Tyrone Perez, Jay Manalo and lots pa, I just don't know their screen names but definitely recognize them. Sherilyn is nice, and Tyrone is cute pala, nga lang parang mayabang! Hahah..Starstruck? Parang now lang nakakita ng artista!!!wahahahaha..

+ Well atleast these things make me forget my inner despair that comes from outer space. Ciao!

[ 7:12 PM ]

all mixed up!

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