i hope to make a long post

it's 9:34 pm..hay naku, tomorrow will be another day at work..everyday i come to realize that no work can be that non-routinary!amp..same shit...ETO ang buhay!!!
well hindi naman ako galit sa mundo nito ah..as for now, i can say that im so-so with my work..meaning, not THAT happy pero not naman sad..steady lang..it's different lang talaga being able to work at the airport, wherein TIME is of the essence..I have only been with Cebu Pacific for 3 weeks but then I have had my own share of stories to tell na rin..Both with some f*cking passengers and beep beep beep beep**..hahaha...i can't tell..

now i'm in deep thinking again..ewan, my two days off from work was nonsense..I just stayed home to rest kundi i'm gonna suffer for a week again. I feel ill most of the time, kse naman ang lamig sa airport not to mention that we are not allowed to wear jackets..hah! frustrations frustrationnnnnsss...so as i was telling, i was home for my two days off..better na rin coz i didnt have to spend again for things blah blah..dapat lang coz masisira na ang atm card ko..hahha..ayoko na gumastos promiseee.(dis week)heheheh..

I don't know what's up with me lately..I am setting my mind to focus on work more (which I am doing so nicely) and not think of my depressions outside the terminal..but it's true nga that at the end of the day, u still feel the pain..but the good side of it is that im not anymore affected by it AT WORK...which by the way, i need to maintain..

Right now i'm in the process of accepting things as they are.. mimi's been my constant textmate and shock absorber..actually, we absorb each other's..errr shocks? haha..i mean we try to comfort each other about the depressions and all that, just mainly giving each other the support we don't get from people we EXPECT cguro to get from..The one thing common is that we're both KSP..un lang.. (reactions, anyone?)

Am i tired now? Hah, bad question..y? cause i can't answer it! damn it..

All i can do right now is just hope for the best.. Accepting things as they are is really hard especially when you know that no matter how much effort you give into it, there's nothing you can do about it. It's just not meant to happen for now cguro..Just what like mimi's always telling me, if it causes me too much pain and i cant bear with it anymore, then i guess its about time to let it go..

my mind says yes but my heart still says no..i'm keeping the faith..

[ 9:35 PM ]

1 Comments:

tagay na tau pare!!!langyang buhay....live life to the fullest...full of shits!!!!:)

By prettylilac, at 12:15 AM