so tiring

I went shopping after office. Ganun ako pag depress depressan. Napapagastos tuloy ako. I remember one time when I was still in Accenture, nilibre ko teammates ko ng yellow cab pizza.! yummy..depress kse ako nun.. pag naiinis ako, outlet ko ang gumastos.. After that, magugulat ako kse im broke again. 15 days before payday, wala na kong pera sa ATM. Simot na sweldo ko for the kalahating buwan..

I bought blouse, jacket and skirt. Inubos ko sweldo ko. Sayang, naubos wala naman akong nabiling jeans, shoes or bag. Hay naku. Ganun talaga cguro. You cant have everything you want. I bought the skirt para sa valentine's day..malay mo! haha :) Ayan na naman..feeling na naman ako..After that, I met manj and jaz in G4. Swerte talaga ng dalawang un.. hay, sana pala Australia here I come na rin ako..Oks lang.. ganun talaga. We had dinner sa Kenny. Haha..C manj, health conscious ang drama. hehe..ma mi miss ko talaga ang 2 un. Two of my closest friends..

My tita arrived from the States. Mom called if I can go with them sa Duty Free. I wanted to go sana kaya lang pagod na ko. Depressed pa. Mapapagastos lang ako ulet, wala na kong igagasta pa..hehe..pathetic..So i went home, watched TV and made the biggest mistake of my life..The call..Peste! Pesteng kamay to..Dial dial pa.. Ayan.

Slept at around 2am.. Badtrip may pasok pa ko the next day at eto pa til 10pm pa ko!!Grrr..Normal lang sa isang tao ang ma depress pero ung sa kin abnormal na.. It's like every other day! What a LIFE di ba?.. Mostly, I admit it's my fault why I'm going through these depressions..Di na kse ako matuto..It's very hard for me to step out of my comfort zone. And 'sha' ang comfort zone ko..Haayy naku..Yun nalang masasabe ko.. My life is full of shit nowadays. Minsan para akong gago coz I talk to myself and comfort ME. Damn! Nasisiraan na ata ako. At peste, dahil sa yo un!!! Masakit pa don, timang na ko dahil I'm trying to reach out on him but he keeps on pushing me away.. Less talk less mistake sana ang motto ko for this year..Kaya lang, di ko talaga kaya..

Kung pwede lang magmura...